Snow Day

I love snow days and being home! My life has to settle down a little. I need more home time and more Linda time. Is that being selfish? I really think if I could slow down my activities some, I'd be a better wife, mother, grandmother, daughter, and sister, not to mention, a better teacher. As I get older, I think about the time I have left with my life. We never really know, it could end tomorrow, but all the more reason to live each day happily and doing God's will. Sometimes our jobs consume our lives so much, even in our dreams. I just think we have our priorities all screwed up. Life is so short. I have 2 cousins younger than me, who have been living with cancer for 5-11 years. Their time is short. Maybe that's why I have been re-evaluating my life and the choices I make. I tend to want to do everything and experience everything. So I am always saying the "YES" word and getting myself into things because I do want to experience it all. Not in a wild and crazy way. I get involved in school things, church things, women's groups, etc. I just feel like I want time to work on my photo scrapbook albums, listen to some good music, read the Bible daily, relax and read a good book, and visit with good friends, without worrying about what else I should be doing instead. We put so much pressure on ourselves. We should be good housekeepers, not my favorite thing to do, although I love to be in a clean organized house. WE should cook healthy, low fat meals. I hate to cook! We should always go above and beyond the call of duty at work, especially if you're a teacher! I should visit my two 96 & 98 year old grandmothers (I love them both, but what were they doing when they were 54? Were they spending time with me or their other relatives?) I would love to spend more time with my wonderful mother. I know she is lonely with out my dad. I see her every Sunday and try to go over once in a while. I call her more than I used to. She's an awesome, giving person. This is a priority for me right now. I try to spend lots of time with my granddaughters. What wonderful grand kids I have. They are beautiful, talented and very good girls. I'd like to spend more quality time with my children and their spouses, too. Then, I feel the urge to teach Sunday school. One more job on my list, but I feel like God wants me to do this. I also lead a small group that has one more session to finish up the book of James. Then we will start a new study, not sure what because the church is starting an all church small group study in April, so it would have to be something fairly short. We do meet at my mom's so I do get to see her during the week and take grandma Vena with me. One other thing we spend time doing is caring for Bill's mom. She's with us again right now for a week or so. She has been in the emergency room twice in the last week with high blood pressure, back and stomack pain. She's going to see a surgeon in Wichita next Thursday so Bill will take a day of vacation and take her down there. She's 84! Keep her in your prayers. Well, I thought I wouldn't have anything to write about!!! Maybe no one else will be interested in what I have to say, but maybe it will be therapeutic! Now I need to read my email and decide if we dare to go to a conference in Kansas City tomorrow and if we should leave tonight.